Consideration

After a Long consideration, I decide to stop writing for English blog and just continue for Chinese blog only~haha

A new semester

The New semester of year 2 had started and I just started to update my blog on Friday.

It was a long time since the last time I update my blog.
Today, I got a feelinf to write something here but I dunno why.
However, I dunno what I suppose to share~

Currently, I'm working as a part-timer.
AND
the main purpose is to buy a PSP
ya, the reason is the game product that I like is not going to produce PC version and tats why I need money to buy tat~
But actually, the other purpose to work is to suppost my expences in Singapore as everything in Singapore is very expensive.
So, I should stay at home to save money.
Espeacially the Haze problem~


New semester, really got nothing to write , nothing to share.
Its ok, I think i can slowly found my motivation to write a blog~

7th month

currently, we are "celebrating" the 7th month so call "Ghost Month".

I usually hanging around with my friends and share some ghost story during school time.
But this year, it seems like nothing happens at all especially I am having holidays now~~
I was just lazy to do anything.
Nope, I did do something.
I sleep, I eat, and watch any nice show
It is nice that if my life will be like that forever~
In past, there was a lot of things for me to share in this place but currently I dun even know what I am going to write or to type out.
Maybe I was somebody that like to write a lot. So that I feel it is not enough when I share too "little".
But think about it again.
this is the place where I share everything in my life.
It doesnt need to be long winded.
It doesnt need to be a good content.
It doesnt need somebody tocome and view it.
As long as I feel Happy, Its enough for me as this is my own little world!!

Think I had already out of topic but who CARES???
HAHA!!

Perhaps

Perhaps I really not that good enough
Perhaps I really not qualify for this
Perhaps this is fate
Perhaps I shouldnt hurt myself at the first place
Perhaps I couldnt has anything
Perhaps I really useless
Perhaps others are better than me
Perhaps my work is simply not enough
Perhaps my fate had decide this for me
Perhaps I'm not that good in others eyes
Perhaps I'll be forever like this
Perhaps I'll be my stumbling stone forever
Perhaps I should be given up
Perhaps I shouldnt give myself any hope
Perhaps there is no perhaps, just I'm not suitable for it


Today, my mood is kind of complicated
I met something interesting
but th mood is still bad
I was feeling very tired
it seems like I couldnt move forward anymore
I'm disheartened
I'm cold hearted
Is it someone else cant see my effort
or I'm not good enough
I think that is not important to me now
Because I had been given up
And surrendered
I really felt very tired.....

Holiday

What kind of feeling does "Holidays" give you?

It proceed very fast when I was busy.
However,
It proceed very very slow when I was like totally free

During school days, I was thinking like this, WHEN IS MY HOLIDAYS???
How about the time during holidays?
If I got nothing to do for everyday, I will shout like,WHEN THE SCHOOL IS GOING TO START???


Yup, I'm a bit crazy. Waiting for holidays, schoolday, holidays, schooldays all the time.
But, I still prefer schooldays~
WHY?
Because I can met my friends there~
Isn't that nice?
I was like calling my friends out to play during holidays...
But everyone is busy.(including me>.<)
I'm not blaming anyone and I knew that people are really very busy.
Even sometimes, i'll busy until forget to take a breath (Just kidding~)
So,I will use my free time in school to go and search all my friends who are free and disturb them~ Yup, I very bad~ haha~


Nowadays, people are all addicted to Facebook,(Me too~)
Don't ask me why, I also don't know~
Now, staying at facebook become my routine.
Look like I can't live without facebbok.
How about the ME that can't live with out TV?
Think he die already~ LOL
Actually, I can surf the net for whatever movie or drama that I want to watch rather than waiting the TV show day by day~
So, My routine will be sitting in front of the computer and watch "TV".
Recently, I take up a lot of my computer free space~
Thinbk gonna buy a new hardisk soon~


the legend is born – ip man is coming soon!!! WOO!
I hope Singapore show the original one rather than the one with stupid dub.

Exam week

I'm having my exam this week, moodless~~
Ya, I never put up a lot of effort and that's why I end up with bad result~

It's have been a long time I never play computer game since the last time.
Too, I miss my Aikido training a lot!!!!
So long never go, think I had deprove a lot!!!
Sensei gonna scold me again.
haha~

I had been listening to this music recently, it quite nice~
It give me a very warm feeling when listening to the song.



The film deals with the relationships among four men in a Japanese prisoner of war camp during the Second World War — Jack Celliers (Bowie), a rebellious prisoner with a guilty secret from his youth; Captain Yonoi (Sakamoto), the young camp commandant; Lieutenant Colonel John Lawrence (Conti), a British officer who has lived in Japan and speaks Japanese fluently; and Sergeant Hara (Kitano) who is seemingly brutal and yet humane in some ways and with whom Lawrence develops a peculiar friendship.

Like Celliers, Yonoi, too, is tormented by guilt. Having been posted to Manchuria previously, he was unable to be in Tokyo with his Army comrades, the "Shining Young Officers" of Japan's February 26 Incident, a 1936 military coup d'état. When the coup fails, the young army officers are executed. Yonoi regrets not being able to share their patriotic sacrifice. Jack Celliers had betrayed his deformed younger brother while the two of them were attending boarding school. Although Celliers confesses this only to Lawrence, Captain Yonoi senses in Celliers a kindred spirit. He wants to replace the British camp commandant Colonel Hicksley with Celliers as spokesman for the prisoners.

The taboo of homosexuality, especially harsh in an otherwise ultranationalist and traditional environment, is suggested throughout the film. A Korean soldier is condemned to commit seppuku after being caught in an "improper" relationship with one of the Dutch prisoners. As the execution is carried out, the Dutch prisoner, who is forced to watch it along with the rest of the prisoners and the Japanese officials as well, bites his tongue and then dies of suffocation himself.

As Celliers is interned in the camp, Yonoi seems to develop a homoerotic fixation with him, often asking Hara about him, silently visiting him in the small hours when Celliers is confined. However, later on, Yonoi becomes enraged by Celliers' behaviour and has him and Lawrence thrown into the punishment cells.

Yonoi's ADC suspects the mental hold that Celliers has on Yonoi so he tries to kill Celliers but fails in the attempt. Celliers manages to escape his cell and rescues Lawrence, only to be thwarted by Yonoi unexpectedly. Yonoi challenges Celliers to single combat saying "If you defeat me, you will be free" but Celliers refuses. Yonoi's ADC then commits seppuku in atonement after urging Yonoi to kill Celliers before Celliers can destroy Yonoi.

It is Christmas Eve and Sgt Hara is drinking heavily and orders both Celliers and Lawrence to be brought to him. Hara then advises them that he is playing "Santa Claus" and is ordering their release. He then calls out in English for the first time "Merry Christmas Lawrence."

Sgt Hara is later reprimanded by Yonoi for exceeding his authority. The whole camp is paraded on Yonoi's order. All prisoners are prompted to form lines outside the barracks, including sick and moribund ones. The climax of the film is reached by then, when Celliers breaks the rank and walks decidedly in Yonoi's direction, only to end up resolutely kissing him in the cheek with a straight face. This is an unbearable offense to Yonoi's bushido honor code; he reaches out for his katana against Celliers, only to collapse under the conflicting feelings of vindicating himself from the offense suffered in front of his troops and his own feelings for Celliers. Celliers is then attacked and beaten up by the Japanese soldiers.

Captain Yonoi himself is then redeployed and his successor who declares that "he is not as sentimental as Captain Yonoi" immediately has Celliers buried in the ground up to his neck as a means of punishment and then left to die.

Four years later, Lawrence visits Sergeant Hara, who has now been imprisoned by the Allied forces. Hara has learned to speak English whilst in captivity. He also reveals that he is going to be executed the next day. Hara reminisces about Celliers and Yonoi. We find out that Yonoi himself was killed just before the war ended. Hara recalls that Christmas Eve and both are very much amused. The two bid each other farewell for the last time. Just before Lawrence leaves, Hara calls out again "Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence".

Custom domain

Woots!!!
Finally I did have the time and motivation to update my blog~
by the way, I'm thinking to move my blog to another wite as this blog has a longwinder domain name which contain the ".blogspot.com"
btw, where can I find the blog with free custom domain?
any idea abt it?